yipee... 21!! 21!!! 21!!! lol...

no no... I haven reach tt age yet... still got 2 long years to go before reaching the adulthood... hahaha..... and no, my birthday is not on the 21 nor do I know anyone whose birthday is on the 21... hahaha,... I am happy about the 21 cos...

ITS DNX 21 MONTHS!!!

hahaha.. time pass so fast and we are going closer and closer to the big 2... so far, this marks my longest relationship.. hahaha... no bad hor.. this is also dear's longest relationship too.. so we are both super super happy...

and we should be.. considering what we have gone through the pat 21 months... actually, if want to Ji Jiao this actually the 2nd year and dun how many months that we could have been together.. but, oh well, lets not dwell on it..

as I was saying, if it was any other couple, I think long long ago they would have been "bye bye" le... they would hvae move on and dun bother about turning back... but we pull through I all.. from a bitch to friends, from trust and security, family and relatives, work and money... we have been through it all.. and seems like there is definitely more to come.. (dam) but oh well, life is never perfect and smooth flowing... mine is a definite not... haiz.. poor poor me.. but well, through it all I have learn and experience new things... so...

anyway, enough blabbering... lets talk about more substantial stuff.. hmm.. like... my OFF DAY!!!

woohoo.. it was dam shiok man.. being able to sleep longer... actually, technically speaking it was the same since I slept at 12 and woke up at 7.. usual time is sleep at 11 plus wake up at 6.. so more or less no diff.. but there is something about knowing that its an ff day and u dun have to go work that makes u feel energetic and not sleepy at all..

woke up and dress and prepare for my date with dear.. then I made my way to Tiong Bahru to await his arrival.. took the train with dad who was also on his way to work.. it was a good time for us to catch up and talk since he got back from Japan not long and haven been able to talk to him much.. so it was actually nice to be able to have a decent conversation with him.. hee hee...

then I went to Mac to wait for Mr sleepy head to wake up... luckily I brought a book along so it wasn't tt bad.. then wen dear finally arrive (9+++) we went to UOB bank..

ever since dear started work, he has been slowly saving for th future.. but of cos, its dam hard to save in ur normal account where u are always tempted to save the money... so we decided tt he should get another account so that the saving actually will take place.. well, good move cos in the end not only does he get to save and gain more interets (the bank was offering 3.75* rather than the normal rate), dear also got a new IPOD nANO... dam... lucky him...

the last few weeks I have actually been going IT shopping.. was considering either getting a DS Ninteno or a MP3 player.. I really like the nano but well, I couldn bear to part with so much money.. so in the end, after long hours of walking and searching and time spend cracking my brain and calculating my financial status, I did not get anything in the end.. dam...*bian zui* lol...

after we finish his account, it was just the right timing to head to my bank, POSB... needed to change my atm card as well as apply for a debit card... the queeue was so darn long... was contemplating to withdraw all my money and start an UOB account... the convenience of not having to look for two different atm machines on a date.. yipee.. hahaha.. but well, decided to be a paitient girl and wait..

in the end, I did manage to get my new atm card which also acts like my debit card.. apllied for thecapital land debit card too since it was free application at tt time.. yipee.. hopefull it can do online purchasing.. hee hee.. then it will be "ebay here I come".. lol..

we then headed to Vivo vity to catch a movie.. to the management of Vivo city, I apologies if u all were sneezing the entire time since I was cursing and swearing the entire time.. oops.. but I seriously could not help it.. it was horrible..

there is not even a single atm machine in that entire "City".. we had to walk all the way to Harbour front just to withdraw money... at tt point in time I was dam piss... since we could not wihdraw, we had to ourchase our tickets using the AXS machine.. and the stupid machine gave us A seats.. bloody freaking A... if it was my report card I would not have mind.. but in a cinema.. killer... and to top it al, the seats were super not comfortable.. and we were surround by noisy freaking students who just couldn keep their mouths shut.. dam... I thank god that we did not catch a horror movie.. imagine the screaming, screeching and noise.. urghhh...

but well, the show mad up for the surrounding.. it was absolutely wonderful... fabulous movie.. everyone go watch "STEP UP" its a great movie... the dance moves, the songs, te story line.. perfect.. it was such en entertaining movie... too bad for the surroundings.. ot would have been the most perfect movie date... haiz... i'm sticking to Great world.. haha...

we then went to vivo mart to find food to cook.. hee hee... its been some time since we last cook at his place since his mum is always nagging about how we will make the house dirty... but well, we wanted to make soup so we tot it wouldn be tt bad...

we bought th packet type where u just put the ingredients in and let is boil.. brought this herbak chicken soup.. plus we got 4 drumlets and a packet of the instant eggs.. yummy... then we went to his place and boiled the soup for around 1 hr and 45 mins... at the mean time, we were watching TV and dear was dozing off on the sofa.. hahaha... as usual, I was notti and every time he doze off I would be there, wide-eyed at his face.. haha.. thus every time he open his eyes he would see my inoccent face looking at him.. lol..

anyway, the food was good.. considering it was our first time.. I also fried my favourite "sunny-side up eggs for us to eat.. yummy yummy... too bad the mood of the day was destroyed at the end by his mom, but oh well, it was a great off day and it was a great day...

oh, how I wish I could this every other day (see, I am not tt greedy.. lol) time spent with dear is just so great.. its only when we dun meet and stuff tt things tend to happen... hmmm... but well, I am slowly learning to let him have more time for himself..can't hog him yeah... wouldn't want him to suffocate...

DEAR DEAR, THANKS FOR THESE WONDEFUL AND BLISS 21 MONTHS... although there are many times where u muz have felt like giving me one big slap and leaving me, I am grateful tt u stayed on with me and continued to love me day by day.. I know u are tolerating my nonsense so I will try my best to reduce them k.. and I will try to fulfill all ur wishes.. hee hee... heres hopping that we have many many more happy days to come.. many more months to celebrate and many more anniversaries to look forward too.. u are the best thing tt has happen in my 19 years of life... thanks dear... muack...

yipee... 21!! 21!!! 21!!! lol...

no no... I haven reach tt age yet... still got 2 long years to go before reaching the adulthood... hahaha..... and no, my birthday is not on the 21 nor do I know anyone whose birthday is on the 21... hahaha,... I am happy about the 21 cos...

ITS DNX 21 MONTHS!!!

hahaha.. time pass so fast and we are going closer and closer to the big 2... so far, this marks my longest relationship.. hahaha... no bad hor.. this is also dear's longest relationship too.. so we are both super super happy...

and we should be.. considering what we have gone through the pat 21 months... actually, if want to Ji Jiao this actually the 2nd year and dun how many months that we could have been together.. but, oh well, lets not dwell on it..

as I was saying, if it was any other couple, I think long long ago they would have been "bye bye" le... they would hvae move on and dun bother about turning back... but we pull through I all.. from a bitch to friends, from trust and security, family and relatives, work and money... we have been through it all.. and seems like there is definitely more to come.. (dam) but oh well, life is never perfect and smooth flowing... mine is a definite not... haiz.. poor poor me.. but well, through it all I have learn and experience new things... so...

anyway, enough blabbering... lets talk about more substantial stuff.. hmm.. like... my OFF DAY!!!

woohoo.. it was dam shiok man.. being able to sleep longer... actually, technically speaking it was the same since I slept at 12 and woke up at 7.. usual time is sleep at 11 plus wake up at 6.. so more or less no diff.. but there is something about knowing that its an ff day and u dun have to go work that makes u feel energetic and not sleepy at all..

woke up and dress and prepare for my date with dear.. then I made my way to Tiong Bahru to await his arrival.. took the train with dad who was also on his way to work.. it was a good time for us to catch up and talk since he got back from Japan not long and haven been able to talk to

him much.. so it was actually nice to be able to have a decent conversation with him.. hee hee...

then I went to Mac to wait for Mr sleepy head to wake up... luckily I brought a book along so it wasn't tt bad.. then wen dear finally arrive (9+++) we went to UOB bank..

ever since dear started work, he has been slowly saving for th future.. but of cos, its dam hard to save in ur normal account where u are always tempted to save the money... so we decided tt he should get another account so that the saving actually will take place.. well, good move cos in the end not only does he get to save and gain more interets (the bank was offering 3.75* rather than the normal rate), dear also got a new IPOD nANO... dam... lucky him...

the last few weeks I have actually been going IT shopping.. was considering either getting a DS Ninteno or a MP3 player.. I really like the nano but well, I couldn bear to part with so much money.. so in the end, after long hours of walking and searching and time spend cracking my brain and calculating my financial status, I did not get anything in the end.. dam...*bian zui* lol...

after we finish his account, it was just the right timing to head to my bank, POSB... needed to change my atm card as well as apply for a debit card... the queeue was so darn long... was contemplating to withdraw all my money and start an UOB account... the convenience of not having to look for two different atm machines on a date.. yipee.. hahaha.. but well, decided to be a paitient girl and wait..

in the end, I did manage to get my new atm card which also acts like my debit card.. apllied for thecapital land debit card too since it was free application at tt time.. yipee.. hopefull it can do online purchasing.. hee hee.. then it will be "ebay here I come".. lol..

we then headed to Vivo vity to catch a movie.. to the management of Vivo city, I apologies if u all were sneezing the entire time since I was cursing and swearing the entire time.. oops.. but I seriously could not help it.. it was horrible..

there is not even a single atm machine in that entire "City".. we had to walk all the way to Harbour front just to withdraw money... at tt point in time I was dam piss... since we could not wihdraw, we had to ourchase our tickets using the AXS machine.. and the stupid machine gave us A seats.. bloody freaking A... if it was my report card I would not have mind.. but in a cinema.. killer... and to top it al, the seats were super not comfortable.. and we were surround by noisy freaking students who just couldn keep their mouths shut.. dam... I thank god that we did not catch a horror movie.. imagine the screaming, screeching and noise.. urghhh...

but well, the show mad up for the surrounding.. it was absolutely wonderful... fabulous movie.. everyone go watch "STEP UP" its a great movie... the dance moves, the songs, te story line.. perfect.. it was such en entertaining movie... too bad for the surroundings.. ot would have been the most perfect movie date... haiz... i'm sticking to Great world.. haha...

we then went to vivo mart to find food to cook.. hee hee... its been some time since we last cook at his place since his mum is always nagging about how we will make the house dirty... but well, we wanted to make soup so we tot it wouldn be tt bad...

we bought th packet type where u just put the ingredients in and let is boil.. brought this herbak chicken soup.. plus we got 4 drumlets and a packet of the instant eggs.. yummy... then we went to his place and boiled the soup for around 1 hr and 45 mins... at the mean time, we were watching TV and dear was dozing off on the sofa.. hahaha... as usual, I was notti and every time he doze off I would be there, wide-eyed at his face.. haha.. thus every time he open his eyes he would see my inoccent face looking at him.. lol..

anyway, the food was good.. considering it was our first time.. I also fried my favourite "sunny-side up eggs for us to eat.. yummy yummy... too bad the mood of the day was destroyed at the end by his mom, but oh well, it was a great off day and it was a great day...

oh, how I wish I could this every other day (see, I am not tt greedy.. lol) time spent with dear is just so great.. its only when we dun meet and stuff tt things tend to happen... hmmm... but well, I am slowly learning to let him have more time for himself..can't hog him yeah... wouldn't want

him to suffocate...

DEAR DEAR, THANKS FOR THESE WONDEFUL AND BLISS 21 MONTHS... although there are many times where u muz have felt like giving me one big slap and leaving me, I am grateful tt u stayed on with me and continued to love me day by day.. I know u are tolerating my nonsense so I will try my best to reduce them k.. and I will try to fulfill all ur wishes.. hee hee... heres hopping that we have many many more happy days to come.. many more months to celebrate and many more anniversaries to look forward too.. u are the best thing tt has happen in my 19 years of life... thanks dear... muack...

its currentl 1330 base on office time.. that means 3 more hours to go before i can leave... yipee.. nope.. my math isn't failing... hahaha.. although now it seems i am more dependent on the calculator.. but anyway, i clocking off at 430pm today instead of the usual Friday 530pm... claiming one of my four hours of off-in-lieu... haha... slowly clear. wanted to keep it till Christmas time.. but hui leng wanted me to clear by this month since i will have plenty next month... then i am not clearing all in one short since dear does not want to clear any leave, so that will mean time just idling away.. so sianz...

events are linning up one after another towards the end of the month... so tts why i am enjoying the free time that i have now... cos by the end of the month, my entries will either be shorter and shorter or non-exsistence now... so now enjoying surfing the net and blogging...

but what to blog today lei.. there is so many things on my mind right now... there is so many questions that fill my head... dam.. one of the many setbacks of being a girl.. we just can't seem to stop thinking.. wonder why God creatd gals in this ways... my opinion is so that we can just iritate guys to the max... lol..

no joke.. dear can explain fully what i mean... he is always telling me to stop thinking too much.. never ending de... till he gets sianz, tired and grumpy... but hey, i can't help it.. i am a girl... thats G.I.R.L... I may not behave like one time to time, but there is no mistake that i am.. so, too bad... hahaha...

anyway, feeling dam frustrated over nothing this past few days.. all my emotions are just going wild.. can't seem to think properly.. dam.. stupid hormones.. its high time i should go for my mical check-up.. maybe i hae a tumore somewhere that is causing me to gain weight, causing my period to stop and causing all my emotions to be jumpy and out of place.. no joke.. there is suh a case.. or maybe i am just watching too much "HOUSE"... GERALDINE!!! lol... but hey, House is nice.. gruesome but nice.. lol.. i'm just weird.. lol...

but then the notion of having a tumor doesn seem so bad.. especially if it can be remove and all my fats can just disappear and my emotions just stay normal.. excuses.. lol...

arghh... i' missing Azlina.. when she was around, i dun seem to make so much mistakes.. now when she is gone.. all my mistakes decided to come out and have fun.. dam.. its making me look back.. haiz.. maybe i am just crashing under pressure and responsibilty.. haiz.. but well, Can i do it, Yes i can.. lol.. seeing too much commercials liao... haha...

why do guys like to go look and get to know other girls even when they are attached.. is this really normal?? hmmm... i know its their own private life, but it makes me feel like i am not good enough and thats why there is a need to go look around and find someone better.. yeah yeah.. paranoida... but still.. dun undertstand the logic... this is when i start curssing and swearing at Friendster... dam... oh well, trying to understand this concept.. if anyone can help me understand faster let me know yeah... hahaha...i need to grasp the concept asap.. its causing alot of strain on my relationship... no offense dear...

i met Li mi yesterday (Steffi.. why u live so far!!!) it was great to catch up with her... we basically just roam about tampines... had dinner... some shopping (she shop, i watch).. it was very fun... missing those crazy times we had (we= T.C.C) all the laughter and craziness.. hahaha... happy feeling...which brings me back to the notion that I MISS SCHOOL!!!! yeah, and i dun mean friends only, i am actually missing lectures and tutorials as well.. plus all the funky and fun HTM lecturers... hahaha...

there was a entry that i wrote that i miss my cousin.. hahaha... werid... not particularlly close to anyone.. except one ba... Ching Men... he is 2 years older then me and is currently in KL getting his degree.. hahaha.. we use to send letter to each other in the past... then now we frequently talk on msn... its god to talk to him... someone to listen and talk with who is actually related to me... hahaha... can't be help.. all my cousins are so far away.. only get to see them once a year... some times not even once...so..

sorry, this post us really random.. just typing whatever comes to my mind... hahaha...

doing nothing...Again.. Darn.. What's with these few days.. Dam... Seems like going back to the first few weeks of attachment... So not good.. Thank God for the internet... Thank God for my own computer... And not forgetting tablet... LOL..

long gone are the days where I have to stare, scream and frustratedlly scream at the ancient computer sitting at my table collecting dust... cos, I happen to be using the office tablet.. woo hoo... Its so dam shiok... And its so much more efficient.. Of cos, the ancient one is still on.. But when it comes to things that need printing, all hail the wonderful lappie...

so now my office space is rather cramp... Behind me I have files of stuff that need updating and looking through...And cover lids containing information for me to follow-up... Then there is my own table.. The walls of the table are nicely filled up with pictures and gifts received along my attachment and of cos important information as well.. Then there is the telephone and all the stationary that I have nicely sorted out ... Then there is my piglet sitting nicely in the middle which keeps my handphone warm and comfortable... Not forgetting my trusty tumbler that contains my ice water and my Mickey mouse cup which contains my warm sugar tea...

my speakers are now softly playing love songs... Those love ballads that I wish I can hear them sung by my love one before I go to dreamland... The lappie I on where my messenger is open and ready to be use to strike up conversations esp when the ZzZ bug is going to hit...

so overall.. I shouldn be complaining... compared to those who have to stand all-day, serving customer after customer, I am really one lucky gal.. Not forgetting how one of my drawers is filled with snacks for me (though its time to hit NTUC and stock up)... So I am pretty satisfied.. hahaha...

anyway, since its more or less about office, lets talk about the boo hoo that I made on Friday.. The biggest mistake that I have made thus far..

see, it was a quiet Friday... Hot, lonely and quiet... Gab and Lillian had taken half-day and since I din feel like eating, the rest was happily out for lunch.. Was suppose to send some emails out.. Confirmation letters.. But well, other then it being a hot, lonely and quiet Friday afternoon, it was also one sad day for me.. Had a major argument the night before with dear and so my mood and attitude wasn't at the right place.. Yup.. I flunk one of the major rules in the Hospitality and tourism industry.. Never bring your personal life to work... Darn... But well.. I really just wasn in the mood.. To top it, Azlina was leaving soon and a huge responsibility was suddenly bestowed on me.. Dam.. So as u can see, it really wasn a good day but, I shouldn be making up excuses...

so anyway, I had 3 emails draft up.. Letter A, B AND C... Of cos, letter A was for group A, letter B for group B and well, u get the picture... Anyway, lets list wad I did wrong...

1. I forgot to sign off, so the email was "Thanks and best regards, XXX" dam paiseh
2. there were repeated emails... I did the mail merge thing that have learnt and apparently, I wasn suppose to do that for emails.. But, it was a tad too late.. So...
3. there was grammatical and spelling error..
   

but all those are common.. I made the worst mistake which is so unlikely to be made..

I sent email A to group B, email B to group C and yes I am too ashamed to carry on.. F***... And best of all, the head committee member email happen to be in it.. Darn...

if its my colleagues not so bad, but committee members as well.. There goes poor me.. Best of all, this academic pple love face one.. Serious.. I have come to know how face rules in the academic world...

it seems indifferent to call a professor Dr or call a Doctor Prof. Seems like some small deal, but no.. Its actually a huge deal.. Then u tot there is no difference between Prof. And Assistant Prof. And so u call both of them Prof... Then u find out that oops, I should have called the Assistant Prof. Assistant Prof. or just simple Dr...

wad the hell difference does it make.. haiz.. But well, these are well-to-do, highly educated people who have so splendidly manage to get their PHD... So designation to them matters like hell..

why can't everyone be called Mr. or Miss.. Life will be so much less complicated...

anyway, made that huge mistake.. And ermz, alot of stuff had to be done to correct it.. Feel so bad.. Hui Leng had to ask me whether I am ok.. That I am feeling alrite.. ermz... Dam paiseh la..

well, lesson learnt, other than not bringing personal life to work,

• always check, check and double check.. Checking doesn kill anyone
• fast doesn earn u praise but doing things correctly does
• little details that may seem un-noticeable usually get noticed first

Ahh.. the details of life and the details of academic people's life are so darn important.. I hope that if i do become a Professor one day (dream, dream dream), I won't be so stuck up about my designation.. hahaha.. lets wait and see...

Yipee, dear got his pay.. finally.. at last.. claps.. hahaha... I'm just happy cos I'm missing the "girl" feeling.. i dun mind paying.. i dun mind giving him money.. afterall, i am the one who wants to meet up.. but at times, u just want the feeling of ur bf helping you to pay stuff.. simple things are fine.. just pay for my meals and i will be one happy girl.. lol... I'm so easily pleased...

hahaha.. thats what i think la.. of cos, everyone is subjected to their own thinking... i wonder whether dear thinks i am an easy person to please.. hmm... hahaha... maybe not ba.. cos his thinking and mine just totally clash one another.. its amzing that we are able to stand out for so long.. hahaha.. different charcter, thinking and hobbies...

maybe thats y our share of arguments is a tad more then normal couples.. abit tiring if u ask me.. and the feeling of "when its the next time we argue and then no more" is excruciating... dam.. but well, I shouldn't be complaining... although we have our arguments, we still are and will (hopefully) continue to grow strong and support one another...

okok... lets not get too mushy shall we.. hahaha.. i would love to post some pictures, but nah.. abit lazy.. lol.. hall do so another time.. take care people.. and a note to remember, cherish happy times k? cos u will never know when they will ever end...

hey hey... its been ages since i could blog during working hours.. been so busy lately.. all the conferences and short courses are going to be held together one after another at the end of the month... so got alot of finalisation and other stuff to be done...

Hui Leng isnt in today... so is Andrew... KK went for reservice and Azlina has move on to her new job... all the Professors are also not in the country... lol.. all disappear at once... when is it my turn... boo hoo.. everyone seems to be clearing leave and taking off.. but poor me has to work every single day without fail.. unless i am prepared to fail my SIP... darn..

on a good note, my company has offered me to stay on after my attachment.. most prob going too.. if nothing goes wrong.. will be working for them till the end of 2007.. then i either start a permanent job or i would be going to further my studies.. see what future brings ba...

anyway, enough of all these... the main agenda for today is "FOOD"... lol... i realise while going through my pictures that i have alot of pictures of food... but never got a chance to blog about it.. hmm... so well, since i am falling asleep (played too much Sudoku le) i shall log about food first... hee hee...

lets start off with mummy's birthday which was so darn long ago.. lol... anyway, we went to some hotel (M hotel i think) at Lavender area... buffet dinner.. more or less local food.. but it was still very delicious... dear dear was also invited.. hee hee...

if you are falling i love, dun give ur heart, life and soul to that one person, cos when its gone, it hurts like hell... when he is not around, ur life comes crumbling down... when u two argue, u wun know where to turn... when he betrays u, u wun feel like living...

i never regretted falling in love.. i never regretted giving my all.. i am not going to regret for the things that i have lost... but the only thing that i will regret, is the happy times that i have lost because i didn't learn to let go...

I am sorry for making u unhappy...

I am sorry that i wasn mature enough in my thinking...

I am sorry that i wasn responsible and caring enough...

I am sorry that i wasn thoughtful enough..

There is so many things that i am sorry about... the list goes on and on.. i dun know whether u will accept my apologies.. i dun know whether u will forgive me.. i dun know whether two different people with different characters and thinking can last a lifetime together..

but i do know that, i am happy that i am with u.. i am happy that we got another chance... i am happy that we have so many wondeful memories to keep and remember.. and most importantly,
i am happy for all the things that i have learn.. for being able to love u and be ur gf...

From the first day we met, i could never forget u... from the first day we met, i have never stop loving u...