Friday, April 27, 2007
幸福do u know when is a girl most 幸福? is when the guy of her dreams, of her tots and her one and only true love sings her a good night song.. and not any song, but a love song so sweet and romantic that even an interesting game will be forgotten and all fears and insecurities are put at ease...
girls natuarally feel more insecure and our instincts are always on the dot... probably why we make such good mothers... but at times, this may prove to be more of a curse than a blessing... we tend to think more and let our imagination run wild.. and thus, we tend to get panicky when our intuition radar is on and something seems amiss..
i admit that my ideas, thoughts and feelings are somewhat, or more truthfully, far far different from dear's... lets put it this way, the phrase "Men are from Mars, Women are from Venus" its a good way to describe our differences... but somehow we manage to pull through till now..
sure we have our arguments.. who doesnt.. and i admit that arguing over the same thing over and over again is a definite pain in the ass... people ask me why not end this relationship once and for all and find someone better.. well, here is a very simple answer..
we may have our differences, we may argue over tiny little things, but the fact remains that i love him.. he can hurt me to the extrems, make me cry my heart out and make me pissed like hell, but deep down inside he is still the one.. he is the one that i adore and would try hard to forgive no matter what happens...
now take note, the key word is forgive... and not forget... which is probably a bad thing cos i would rather both come nicely in a package.. but i guess thats gals.. we can forgive but cant forget... probably why i am driving dear to exasperation by mentioning her.. its not a purposefully act, its a i-cant-help-it thing... dear complains that i can link almost anything to her.. hahaha.. oh well, hopefully as days grow by, i will slowly forget abt her once and for all.. and when that day comes, there will definitely be a celebration waiting for me and dear...
anyway, lets just end here... i want to go to sleep with the 幸福 feeling... hee hee... nitey nite
Ywill you fufill my dream this summer?
12:00 AM
Sunday, April 22, 2007
大利吧贝英
hey hey.. i am currently at Mr. TLC (a.k.a Mr. Bf a.k.a Mr. Tender Loving Care =p) place... hee hee.. and nope, i am not using his computer... he is currently playing his 完美世界 which is equivalent to World of War Craft... haha...
Mr. TLC subscribe for new Internet subscription which came with M.I.O which means that there is wireless le... he bought the wireless adapter for me.. so now lappie can be used at his place too.. which is good cos now i wun be complaining of boredom as frequent as last time.. plus, i can watch shows, blog and play games too.. of cos, there will be times where demands for TLC will appear.. hahaha...
anyway, i started going for Amore classes again.. Mr. TLC got a pay raise and he kindly sponsored my classes... yipee... so now i am keeping myself occupied plus getting much needed exercises... hopefully can results in a month time.. hee hee... too bad Li Min subscription has ended.. so got no new khaki to go with me and motivate me to attend classes.. oh well, that will be the job for Mr. TLC.. lol...
anyway, shall take this opportunity to post pictures... i am usually lazy to do at home.. but well, since i have the time now, why not... =)
first up, my room.. hee hee...
this is how my room is suppose to look after its nice and clean
babies corner
stuff given by Mr. TLC plus my accessories corner
my king size bed plus the jigsaw puzzle given by Mr. TLC.. now observe the top part.. now u dun see it..
and now u do... nice ma? its the prezzie given by Mr. TLC this yr V day =)
close up version.. there is one more bigger one.. but i haven took the pic..
next up.. MARIO KART!!!
this is a super fun game... hahaha... me and Mr. TLC are super addicted to it.. we play it whenever we come across it at the arcade... seriously highly recommended to play.. hahaha... its cute, fun, exciting and superb.. lol...
this is how the console looks like.. so far i have only seen it at Century Sq, Suntec, Marine Parade and Bugis...
its a racing game but a more interactiv one.. u can take stupid pictures where other players can see it too.. u can also choose different characters to play... MARIO KART ARCADE GP™ offers classic Mario Kart action with 11 characters. Familiar Mario Kart® characters like Mario, Luigi, Peach and Wario tear up the track with characters available only in the arcade model…. Pac-Man, Ms. Pac-Man and Blinky. Each character has unique driving abilities so you’ll have to try them all. The Player Continuation feature makes that possible!
The game play is fast, furious and FUN! You race around the course and collect crazy items to toss at your adversaries. There are 57 objects available, over 40 developed just for the arcade model! Some items can be thrown forward at the competitors racing in front of you on the course and others can be used to disrupt those who are hot on your tail. There are items that lock on your target and some that provide you with shields to reflect the rival’s attack, there’s even one that allows you to become invisible! While you’re trying to whip around the track and stump your friends you’ve got to dodge the stuff your buddies are tossing your way! The sophisticated feedback steering will have you wishing you never got hit by that blasted Needle Bomb, Thunder Cloud or Tornado. Gathering coins along the way increases your speed and helps you win the race. Advanced players will be thrilled when they discover the hidden moves and use them to their advantage.
MY FAV CHARACTER!!!
seriously go try... even one time.. and i am sure u will get addicted.. hahaha.. i know lili and darren are too.. hahaha... we saw them at CS playing it.. lol.. well, i got a new playing Khaki.. yipee...
anyway, shall end this post here for now... take care people =)
4:16 PM
Tuesday, April 10, 2007
Amusementhahaha... i find something will amusing and since i am so free and not one bit sleepy i shall share it... lolz....
for those using blogspot, recently a new feature was added to the system... that is the use of so-call password... in other words only permitted people are able to view the contents of the blog... i didn't know about this new feature till i viewed a blog that i have been viewing for quite some time... and the person is no one other than bao bei's ex girlfriend, Cindy...
i am not ashamed or anything to admit that i do view her blog... i think i have admitted quite a number of times that i do view her blog... and i mean view only...
to me, there is no harm reading her blog other than to find out what is going on in her life... its just like how i view xiaxue's blog or dawnyang's blog or my ex sch mates blog.. its just a way to pass time...
however, it seems that viewing Ms Cindy's blog is an offence... cos it seems that she is quite or rather very opposed of me viewing her blog after she left a not so pleasant entry of me in her blog.. ad now with the new feature, she has chosen to use it to the full benefit and thus i do not have the privilege to view her blog anymore...
which is why i find it very amusing... that i can be such a threat and nuisance by just viewing a person's blog.. hmm.. interesting rite... hahaha... anyway, no biggie for me.. i will just have one less blog to past my time away.. hahaha... and now at least her friends will be able to view her photos since she stop posting them ever since i started viewing her blog.. but well, i shouldn't think i am such a big shot ba... =)
furthermore it my be a good thing as well... since i can't view her blog anymore, hopefully i will just forget her sooner or later and she wun be a subject between me and bao bei anymore... bao bei will be happy.. lol... he despised any conversation about her... hahaha...
well, this is a lame entry but just want to share this piece amusement.. hahaha... i have decided not to use the new feature since it will be quite tedious for people to have to keep signing in just to view a blog.. anyway, i have nothing to hide.. so...
before i end this entry just a point i want to ask Ms Cindy, if you are viewing my blog that is... why do u hate me so much? i hate u cos u ruin my relationship and destroyed y trust with bao bei which thankfully has grown back... in the end he did choose u, yet u were the one who did not cherish the relationship and you were the one who chose to broke his heart... that had nothing to do with me... so, why do u hate me so that u have to resort to insulting me.. i know its ur life, ur mouth and ur blog but i am just curious of what i have done to u to deserve all these... just to let u know, those insults and comments were not written by me... anyway, i hope u will be mature and not "slutty" to try ruin my relationship again... since u have decided to prevent me from viewing ur blog i take it as u dun wan anything to do with me or with my bao bei again... and since u had the courtesy to say that u did not wat anything to do with my bao bei anymore, please do what u preach.. u will be doing a great favour to alot of people... all the best in ur work life and love life..
with that, lets end this post with some pics shall we... need to add some life to my blog... =) nitey nite people ^_^
i forgot the name of this dog bt i think its often use in iron commercials.. hee hee
this is a beutiful breed cos the fur is all white.. a husky look alike
one of my dates with bao bei @ bugis, this clever poodle was the centre of attraction and its quite obvious why rite
last but not least my favourite dog in the world.. bao bei's fav too.. shall dedicate a whole entry to it next time... i am so going to buy it... once i get my own place tt is.. haiz.. wait for me.. =)
Ywill you fufill my dream this summer?
12:30 AM
Thursday, April 05, 2007
MemoriesI am not sure about computers but laptops can sometimes be a pain in the ass... serious... people may think that it is more convenient to use a laptop since it is portable but let me just say that it may not be so...
One thing bad about laptops is the amount of storage space... its super little.. can't stand it.. not long ago i got Mr. Bf to help me clear space on my lappie since a pop msg kept appearing of the low disk space on my drive... so after contemplating on what to delete, we manage to clear enough space that the irritating msg will not appear again... but recently, the msg keeps appearing once more and i am getting sick of it... haiz...
bro ask me why i just dun wan to save my stuff on my external hard drive which is a solid 80GB hard drive.. my reply... "cos i dun wan end up like u"... lol... see, my bro had save most of his stuff o his hard drive.. due to some carelessness on his part, he left a strong magnet near his hard drive ad one fine day he realise that the hard drive was not working... bam... i think he panicked quite abit.. lucky for him, he is quite an IT expert unlike myself.. and so he managed to fixed the problem.. i think..
as for me, should something IT crash on me, my first reaction would be "WTF" or "Dam" or as Mr. Bf claims to be my cutest remark "Mummy".. lol.. just yesterday i went over to his place to help me sort out his comic collection when a whole buch of comics were about to drop... my reaction "ahhh......" hahaha... Mr. Bf tot i would have screamed for mummy but i didn't and thus he was dully disappointed.. hahaha...
anyway, back to the topic of laptops... so u see why i am not so keen of saving my stuff on my hard drive.. i rather be old fashioned and buy CDs and save my stuff in them... which explains why i have a whole bunch of Cd that contain my projects photos and many more... yup, i even save my school projects.. lol..
furthermore, i like the idea of going through my pictures occasionally or hear songs while playing games... and thus, the idea of constantly sticking my portable hard drive into the laptop is a no no to me...
anyway, i was sitting at my table thinking when i suddenly remembered all the happy memories that i had with Mr. Bf.. and i manage to come up with at least 10 beautiful memories of me and him...
Top 10 memories (not in order)
first sunset at Pasir Ris Park where Mr. Bf broke his sandal and we were laughing and singing away as we walk to White Sand to get him a new pair
4 hour bicycle ride at East Coast Park where we sat at the pier, talk and watch the sunset
the numerous times we had MacDonald breakfast with our tradition of making our hotcakes into "I Love U" msg..
the first time Mr. Bf brought me to his dinner with his camp mates.. it was a horrifying experience to me surrounded by more than 5 guys at once but it was still fun and enjoyable..
our trip to the zoo.. one of the most happiest outings.. the simplicity of just walking and looking at animals was just so memorable
0ur first trip to the dog farm... it was super fun since it was my dream and Mr. Bf to own a dog one day.. and hopefully we will..
our picnic at Pasir Ris Park for our 1 yr anniversary
watching fire works on top of the hill near his place
Company chalet where Mr. Bf was my guest
our romantic getaway at Ben's & Jerry for our 2nd Anniversary =)
of cos there are many many many more but well... people ask why i still continue the relationship though we have argued for the umpteen time and after all we've been through.. i guess the main reason is that though we have more of our share of unhappiness, it is the memories and happy times that make me feel that there is more than the arguments.. to me, each relatinship has it own problems, but i guess if we dwell on it too much than life becomes miserable.. i am trying to remember all the happy moments...
it is true that girls can forgive but can't forget while its harder for guys to fogive but they forget... i am one classic example, Sean Gf is another one and even my dear Lili is another... but now i am trying to look at a different perspective so here are my philosophies...
i realise that sometimes, we need not always know whats going on in our partner life's.. i learnt this the hard way when i caused much unhappiness by prying into his privacy... so now i try not to pry so much.. but a note to guys, dun keep too many things from ur Gfs cos its not very nice.. lol...
this is one of Mr. Bf virtues.. he can sleep and the next day pretend that nothing has happen.. Sean told me that when he and his gf argues he will just tell her "lets go slp an start a brand new day tml"... so i shall try to sleep and forget cos some things are just not worth remembering...
- be grateful for what u have
i must always remember to appreciate and be grateful that Mr. Bf has chosen me and is still with me...
- live each day as if there is no tml
my aunt just passed away a month ago.. life is so short.. u never expect when things can turn for the worst.. my bro friend was at school happy and alive and the next she din appear at sch cos she was dead... sometimes we tend to overlook what really matters in life.. Celine told me that everyone has options.. its only whether we choose that option or not.. i have the option of not remembering all the hurt and betrayal.. so why am i not choosing that option? i guess what i need to lern is tat we can't change the past but we can always look forward to the future..
i think this few days by thinking has changed and i hope its a permanent one.. my latest argument with Mr. Bf has really tot me alot.. furthermore, all the talking with Sean, Celine and Lili has really open my eyes to new things...
hopefully, things will get better... but seriously, i hope i dun become too dull.. what if Mr. Bf doesn like me anymore.... sob sob... 我们勾勾手不准不快乐... =)
PNX2 outing with the loveable Ah Pei
one of the many recent outings with my sweetest daughter
one of the many pages of the book i gave to Mr. Bf
sometimes acting cute isnt enuff and attitude comes into play
my trip to Thailand during CNY
Ywill you fufill my dream this summer?
2:55 PM
Wednesday, April 04, 2007
Promise
Promise that we will try our best to last till the very end..
Promise that we will change our ways that best fit the relationship...
Promise that i will trust u in every thing u do...
Promise u wun be prejudice of the feelings u have for me...
Promise that we will strive hard in our work and studies..
Promise that we will persevere to get the figures we desire...
Promise that we will go through thick and thin together...
Promise that we will share all laughter, tears and pain..
Promise that no matter wat you wun contact her...
Promise that no matter what i wun contact them..
Promise that we will be considerate for one another...
Promise that even if we break up it will be face to face...
Promise that no matter what u we wun lie to each other...
Promise that no matter what we wun hide things from one another...
Promise that no matter what we will do our best to not hurt one another...
and last but not least....
我们勾勾手不准不快乐... =)
12:36 AM
Monday, April 02, 2007
Each Time...Each time that i am in ur arms i feel that only both of us are the only ones left in the world..
Each time u kiss me on my lips i feel my knees melting and my heart is on fire...
Each time u call me ur dear i feel my heart flutter and it skips a beat...
Each time i hear ur laughter all my problems seems to vanish without a trace...
Each time i look into ur eyes, i just want to hold u for eternity and never let go..
Each time i hear ur voice, i am wondering can there ever me a more sweeter sound then urs..
Each time i receive a gift i just want to keep it and look at it each day..
Each time i see kids walking along the street i anticipate the day when we will have ours..
Each time i see my parents i wonder when will be happily married like them...
Each time i hear thunder or the drops of rain i hope that u are safe...
Each time u play ur game i wish that i could be a game and get ur undivided attention..
Each time i hold ur hand i hope to do so when we are old and grey..
Each time i cook u a meal i am hopping that my efforts wun go to waste..
Each time i exercise i am looking to the day when i can see how happy i am for the weight I've lost..
Each time i miss u, my heart yearns for u, any part will do...
Each time i think of u and another girl, i am torn between jealousy and wanting u to be happy...
Each time my phone rings i am hopping that it is u..
Each time u hide something from me, my heart breaks into two..
Each time ur voice change i wonder what i have done wrong and how to appease u..
Each time i try to tell u what i think, i hope u will understand and not change ur tone..
Each time we argue i wonder what going on..
Each time i cry i tell myself its all worth it becos its u..
Each time the bitch comes into play i want to strangle the life out of her..
Each time u reply her i feel insecure and unsure..
Each time i pray i pray that u will always be happy..
Each time, each second, each minute, each day, i hope that i can see u smile, i hope that i can hear u laugh, i hope that i can hear those magic words, i hope that we can last for another day..
Each time, each second, each minute, each hour, each day i make u unhappy, i wish i can just change the past and that we will be happy once again.. i hate myself for making u unhappy, i hate myself for feeling insecure, i hate myself for making u worried, and i hate myself for making u think that this relationship is not worth it...
Each time, each second, each minute, each hour, each day, i am loving u more and thanking God for u choosing me in the end.. but as i love u more, the more harder it is for me to let go... the harder it is for me to think less.. and the harder it is to stop my mind wandering...
I'm sorry
Ywill you fufill my dream this summer?
2:46 PM
