1. Period
2. PMS
3. Pregnancy

hahaha... all Ps... but to me, all these are still endurable... the worst ever thing is IMAGE...

as a girl, u have to portray the role of a loving housewife, a sweet gentle girl, and in the olden days, the one who stays at home.. discriminating... seriously, whats the big deal about image... why do people have to care about what people think of you... u live ur life, i live mine... simple with no complications.. yet, people tend to take into huge consideration the opinions of others and it affects them dearly...

example, my family problem a few months back (those who know will know, those who dun, sorry)... its because of wanting to save face that so many darn problems appear... if u ask me, the problem could have been settled way before, but no, image is to darn important...

so whats the current issue that is making me write this entry? PARENTS... i dun understand what the big deal is of staying over at each other place... in the first place, why should other people care whether i stay at his place... very cheap meh, very slutty... what... whats the big deal... its not like I'm secretly doing it... his mum approves... so whats the big problem...

there's a simple solution to the whole problem, yet parents always like to make things more complicated... just because of FACE... its my life, my face, why should i care....

why do people like to gossip.. why do people like to say things that they dun know the truth about... whats their f***ing problem... if people din talk so much, I'll probably be still actively participating in activities... I'll probably be still close with certain friends...

people say reading Xia xue's blog is a waste of time... i beg to differ.. because at least she is true to what she blogs... she doesn't give a dam what other people say... that's the main difference to her and Dawn yang... dawn yang sweetly follows the government..where image is of all utmost importance... everything she writes needs to be politically sound.. everything she writes is just pure joy and happiness... FAKE...

agrhhh... feeling so dam miffed at the whole society right now... feelings dam pissed with my parents.. why can't they put their ego aside and just dun care about what people think.. it will make life so much easier.. it will definitely make mine...

haiz.. no mood to study.. no mood to do anything... this one month study break has really killed my study mood... and with everything else going on, there's nothing left to motivate me to study...

i miss poly life... i miss the pass family.. I'm missing all my friends... feeling darn emo now.. how i wish my prince is right beside me...

dear dear, can we just keep repeating the weekend.. that was the happiest 3 days even though i wasn't feeling well... i miss u...